I am not a good bystander.
The words ‘just sit and wait’ don’t ‘sit’ well with me.
I am a person of action.
Lately, I’ve been permeated with situations requiring me to do nothing. I have been forced to ‘sit it out,’ comparable to a player who has been benched and is sitting on the sidelines.
Initially, I was frustrated. Then, I was confused. Idle hands, for me, are just that: idle hands. My cease and desist status brought everything to a stop – including my writing.
It took me a few days to get my bearings and put things in perspective. I would sit it out, I would wait. When the time for action made itself known, I would be privy to it and I would begin to act.
After taking a deep breath, I boarded the bus to resignation.
I’ve learned it is acceptable to do nothing even if the immediate situation is begging for a fix.
It is not my job, duty or obligation to correct someone’s wrong. And, while I have always been cognizant that I cannot be the correction fluid to life’s little unscripted mishaps, a big part of me always wants to play the unsung hero.
Not this time.
I’m taking a step back, giving space and making myself scarce until my presence is needed.
I will sit and wait.
As the storms pass, I will watch the rain and hear the thunder.
But should someone need to venture out and face the inclement weather, then I will do what I do best. If they need shelter from the storm, then I will be an umbrella.
Until then, I will pray for sun.